mammogram results thursday
I’ve thought about nothing else all weekend. What will the results say? What will the results say?
Over and over in my head, its driving me mad. You get to a point when you just want it all over and that point was this weekend.
Finally it’s Monday and I called the clinic, the results were in but I had to come in to see the doctor! Hmm that’s not promising.
The mammogram has shown a lump (tell me something I didn’t know, I thought) and to find out if its cancerous I need to have a biopsy!
Bi - op - what? You hear these terms bantered about and think you know all about them. Until a doctor uses those words in your presence referring to you with cancer, that’s when you really know what those words mean.
mammogram friday
What a weekend I’ve got in store, Mammogram Friday, results Monday so my emotions were all over the place.
Its Friday and I’m back at the clinic the mammogram itself was harmless and quick, I think I was there for all of 2 minutes.
One more nightmare over but as I was leaving, I remember seeing an elderly women there who seemed very worried. Just goes to show cancer has no age barriers!
One of the hardest things about having cancer is knowing there is nothing you can do about it.
Your fate is in others hands and that’s hard to get used to. I had to return in 2 days time to get my results. Oh how I wished they could ‘beam me up Scottie’.
first clinic appointment
How would best describe what I’m feeling today? I haven’t got a bloody clue, there are no words to describe the fear and apprehension I feel!
This is the first visit to see what’s occurring, Sgt Major went with me and boy did I need him.
After a long wait in the consultation room, I know how it must feel to be on death row (slight exaggeration).
I went in for my consultation and we went through my background, Dr Molino examined me and said that it looked suspicious.
The fear factor was growing rapidly as the doctor decided to do a ultrasound scan (not too dissimilar to a ultrasound scan when having a baby).
He was able to say immediately this is not a cyst however:
“I should not be overly concerned”
I needed to have mammogram in 2 days time, this was not what I wanted to hear and a sense of panic plus sickness overwhelmed me, I couldn’t breath.
The mammogram will determine what were working with, 1 lump or 2 so to speak! Yet more time to ponder. I’m not very good at waiting around for results, who is in these situations. I left the clinic feeling very sick.